Wednesday, January 31, 2007
"I am STRONG"
well well.. ive decided.. it's enuff for me to cry and lament on my fate.. it's up to uu arh.. ii shall not stress myself up further.. im not forcing uu.. neither am ii gonna stop lurving uu.. lyk ive saed.. ii will neva break my promise.. true.. ii will be sad and hurt if things do not go d wae we expect it to be.. it's quite a heart pain larh if afta wat has happened... afta wat ive gone thru.. we r not meant for each other.. but ii hope a miracle will happen soon..
no matter how hard it is for me.. ii haf to be strong.. ii wun deny d fact tt ive been crying lately.. im sorrie if tt makes d others get worried abt me.. dun worrie, frenz.. d hidayah tt uu guyz noe.. will be back.. ii will try to put my emotions awae.. n control my sadness..
ii was having my BCM lesson when ii started blogging this entry.. had etp tis morneng.. ii wasnt tt early.. wasnt tt late.. im juz in on tyme.. saw fir again for our etp lecture.. haiz~ d both of us mcm dah feel awkward sey.. did ii do ryte thing?? haiyo!!
saw syg again tis afternoon.. during my break.. semangat sey syg!! dtg skola setakat nk amek gmbr tuk graduation?!! waddahell kan?? ahakz.. happie to c him.. but.. ntah ehk.. was sad oso.. lurvee is seriusly.. a complicated thing.. it's a nice feeling tho..
abg mojo came to sch todae.. somebody was happie larh.. **uu shud noe.. who im referring to larh ehk**.. gosh!!
tyme mcm gini larh.. how ii wish.. my darling pillay.. is here with me.. ii nid him!! darling.. where r uu?? [[darling.. im not sure if ure oreadi confem debarred.. darius saed.. it is.. wen ii saw him @ cafe 1 tis afternoon..]]
haha.. to my fadily syg.. tk leh sabar ke?? ii am blogging tis larh.. n ure lyk rushing me for it.. ahakz..
P.S: To my JACKASS bros n sis.. will ii get a surprise from uu guyz?? ii hope.. ii cud celebrate it wit uu pple arh.. ii lurvee uu peepz, aitez?? *muaXx*
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [10:43:00 AM]
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"waTz haPpeNinG???"
ive juz finished doing my IAC on final adjustment.. okey larh.. ii can still do it.. thank god!! one of d chapters tt im able to do...
well.. met fir tis morneng @ cafe 2.. ii was trying my bez to hide from him larh.. dunno whether he noticed me or not... thot tt ii cud escape.. but ii dunno y.. ii kept bumping into him again n again n ii tried not to look @ him... saw him near d photocopying shop below cafe 2... wen me, su, diana n zimah were on our wae to Seng City to buy NEWpaper..saw him again afta school wen ii went cafe 1 to mit up wit d rest of em... from where ii was sitting.. he was facing me larh.. but ii kept my distance awae.. bumped into him again.. @ d atm machine... wen ii was wit joanne.. ii noe tt he n his grup of frenz were behind me... but ii didnt turn back...howeva.. ii didnt manage to run awae from him.. wen ii bumped into him near d lift lobby @ d business blk.. ii was so malu.. ii dunno wat to tok to him...
to my candy... ii dunno.. where are we leading to?? ii do not put any high hopes on uu.. but ii juz cant stop wondering... nobody noes watz going on.. except for d both of us... ii understand ur tight n hectic schedule.. n tt's d reason y.. ii dun get mad when uu didnt contact me for d past few daez... but now... ntahlah uu... ii bingung arh... wateva it is.. for ur information... ii haf neva forgotten abt uu.. ii still lurvee uu n lyk ive saed before.. ii will not break my promise.. NEVA... mark my words!!
to su, diana n zimah... sorrie if wat ive blogged earlier.. hurt uu peepz in any wae.. seriusly.. ii do not haf any intention to jatuhkan maruah sesiape, aitez?? sorrie once again...
okey larh... ii will juz end here.. *missing uu badly*
emotions:
- confused
- crying
- sad
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [10:17:00 PM]
**firDaus Vs azRi**
todae.. ii had to attend a wedding ceremony.. haiz~ MENDAKZ giler!! thanx to my floss.. he kept me accompanied thru his SMS n all.. lurvee uu fir...
well.. todae.. ii dunno.. ii dunno how shud ii react afta all those confession to fir n vice versa.. mcm malu pun ade wanna face him now.. ermz.. tt's juz d wae ii am larh wen ii confess to anybody how ii feel n all..
well fir.. we'll juz let it remain tt wae for d tyme being, aitez?? we'll c how it goes...
n uu my candy.. ii dunno watz wrong.. but dun uu get d hint?? haiz~ it's juz killing me larh.. ii hate it!! reallie reallie hate it!!
my daughter, mia, ii noe.. thanx for ur concern larh ehk.. if he still duzn get d hint.. ii dunno wat to sae larh.. haiz..~
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [1:11:00 AM]
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-=coNFuSed=-
well... ii dunno... is tis wat uu called lurvee?? wen uu lurvee somebody.. uu haf to be strong n confident.. but it duzn mean tt uu haf to be together... tt's wat ii kip telling myself wen it comes to him.. ii dun wanna get hurt.. ii dun wanna get disappointed animore..
n tt's d reason y.. ii am NOT putting high hopes on him.. let GOD decide our fate..
to my floss.. ii dun understand wat uu mean by uu dun wanna get somebody hurt.. n tt uu dun wanna make someone jealous.. ii dun get wat ure trying to tell me wen uu smiled at me afta uu saed those lines.. who were uu referring to?? who's tt someone?? ii hope it's not me.. coz.. ii will juz burst in tears.. ii was controlling it on tt dae.. y izit tt oni now then ure brave enuff to show it?? y muz it oni be now wen ive oreadi given my heart to someone else?? someone who ii am not even putting high hopes on.. ii dun dare...
GOD!!! wat on earth shud ii do?? y izit tt ii dun get jealous wen he "flirts" arnd in sch?? mebe becoz dae r all my frenz.. n who noes?? ii do get jealous.. but ii dun realise it.. haiz~ mebe..
n my darling pillay.. haiyo~ how many times muz ii tell uu?? ure one of those whom ii veri much lurvee.... but it's up to uu larh if uu dun wanna believe me ehk.. read my previous entries.. n uu will noe.. how im feeling now.. tinking of d tyme ii had left wit uu n him... :(
okey larh.. ii shall end here.. *missing him*
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [12:35:00 AM]
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
FARRKK LaRH!!!!!!
wat on earth is happening now?? ii juz feel tt ure getting further n further awae from me.. juz wen ii was abt to feel d real happiness.. ii had to learn somethng new abt uu..
if wat ive juz read is true.. then.. let me tell uu arh.. uu can go ahead with her.. ii dun mind.. reallie.. lyk ive saed.. ii shall not put any hopes on uu.. aper lagi high hopes.. if it's meant to be.. then.. it's meant to be larh.. hmm.. so.. if she's d one tt can make uu happie.. juz go ahead wit it, aitez??
mebe ure juz being frenz wit her.. even more.. ii dunno.. sorrie if im being paranoid.. but tt's becoz ii lurvee uu.. if uu feel that im not d one.. juz tell me so.. dun lead me on.. pls.. it will juz hurt me more.. allow me to cry now then later.. ii dun wanna fall further... pls! ii begged uu..:(
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [7:11:00 PM]
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
^**^ aLL beCauSe oF yOu ^**^
ALL BECAUSE OF YOU
Your smile makes a difference
You reflect my dreams
Nothing ever matters
Whenever you're with me
Your surprises never fail me
You're my need
Your innocent reveals
The love I have in me
Bridge
I crave for your presence
I yearn to hear you
I understand more because of you
Chorus
You're a natural
All is possible
Everything seems right
It's so surreal
There is no pretence
Nothing can compare
To the moments we shared
You're my perfect joy
A splendid sight
Like a stained glass that
Sparkles from inside
Unconditional
Love and honesty
It's all because of you
Your beauty lights the darkness
You reflect true love
The world's so much better
Whenever you're with me
Embracing our days
You are my life
Though time waits for no one
Forever you'll be mine
Repeat Bridge
I crave for your presence
I yearn to hear you
I understand more because of you
Chorus
You're a natural
All is possible
Everything seems right
It's so surreal
There is no pretence
Nothing can compare
To the moments we shared
You're my perfect joy
A splendid sight
Like a stained glass that
Sparkles from inside
Unconditional
Love and honesty
It's all because of you
Because of you
You're a natural
All is possible
Everything seems right
It's so surreal
There is no pretence
Nothing can compare
To the moments we shared
You're my perfect joy
A splendid sight
Like a stained glass that
Sparkles from inside
Unconditional
Love and honesty
It's all because of you
posted at [12:09:00 PM]
-=USAH LEPASKAN=-
USAH LEPASKAN
Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri
Berwarna warni segala
Yang dijanjikan ia
Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman
Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu
Usah lepaskan
Bridge
Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu
Ku ingin selalu bersama mu
Repeat Chorus
Usah biarku bersendirian
Usah biar hati mu di tawan
Usah biar diri ku di sini
Seorang menunggu tanpa teman
Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu
Usah biar semua berlalu
Usah terlupa perasaan hati
Pertama kali kita bertemu
Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
Usah lepaskan
Usah lepaskan
Yang terindah
Terlukis di bibir mu
Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu
Sebegitu
posted at [11:51:00 AM]
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
^^mY saDdeSt moMent^^
well.. had my accounting c.a. todae.. n im so gonna fail d section B arh.. it was a killer!! farkklah.. ive yet to study my other chapters which ii dun even haf any idea on how to do em.. waddahell lorz!! n to tink tt we're oni six weeks awae from wat we students owaez fear.. EXAMS!!!!! gosh! ii dun wanna fail arh.. im so scared.. ive been missing alot of lessons arh.. not counting those lessons where ii owaez come late.. n thanx to those lesson.. ii owe Mrs K.. 6 hrs of CWO.. whoa~ a COW doing a CWO!! sheesh..
speaking of six weeks.. ii will foreva get emotional weneva ii tink of d tyme ii had left before syg n darling pillay were to graduate.. [[im not sure if wat ii heard abt darling pillay's gonna get debarred from his exams is true larh.. ii hope not.. but if d news is true.. it's good in another wae.. :p hehe.. sorrie darling.. ii pray hard tt uu wun get debarred kae?? coz.. ii myself.. mite be under one of those students who gonna get debarred tis semester.. ]] six weeks will juz pass by juz lyk tt... haiz~ it's not far from now... now.. it's oreadi coming to d end of january.. ii dunno how im gonna survive wifout them once dae've graduated.. yes.. true enuff.. im grateful tt ii still haf my JACKASS bros n sis.. but dae gonna graduate oso @ d end of this year... haiz.. dae r d ones tt ii owaez hang out wit afta school.. well.. wat ii can do now.. is to treasure every moments.. every minutes left for me to spend wit em.. before dae leave d school...
went back wit darling pillay on mondae.. ii didnt wanna go home.. had a tiff wit my parents.. ii juz wanna stae out.. followed syg n darling with d other engineering BLs.. fadily syg, hafiz, muhsin, bala n adeq afik... dae had a tok once again.. enginerring stuffs.. wen all was done.. everyone went home.. syg was wondering why wen darling told him to go home first.. coz he gonna stae arnd wit me n he assured syg tt he'll take care of me n send me back home.. ii noe.. syg was worried.. but dun worrie kae, syg?? took 27 towards airport and make a u-turn back to sengkang.. had a long tok wit darling during d journey.. that was d dae.. tt ii adcili "went out" with darling alone.. before he left.. ii juz felt lyk crying... he told me tt once he graduated.. he wun be coming back to the school.. wah!! tt means.. ii wun be seeing him anymore larh afta tis.. gosh!! but he told me.. he assured me tt d MONYET will come back for his LEMBU.. ii dunno larh.. ii juz feel sad..
YEABAA.. ii dunno larh.. d recent post.. ii did mention tt it still existed.. ii gez so.. but ii dunno where is it leading to.. watz happening to the grup.. it seems that each dae.. there's owaez conflict between one another.. it juz pains me to see us drifting apart.. y izit that we cant be as united n happie as one big family as we used to be?? ii noe.. ii mae not be a member of the engineering or d AHS.. but.. until wen r we gonna hate each other n bring each other down?? yes.. adeq afiq, bala, hafiz, fadily syg n muhsin.. uu guys haf a point tt hidayat is not doing a great job as the engineering chairman.. ii agree wit uu pple.. but ii hope.. afta tis.. there's no more conflict.. same goes to the AHS.. no more hatred towards zai.. we are all humans.. we never failed to make mistakes.. uu guys haf sorted it out.. so.. ii hope there'll be peace in every schools, yarh?? give yat n zai a chance to improve on themselves..
YEABAA.. ii will try to bring all of us back together.. can we?? that's my wish.. ii lurvee all of uu n ii dun wish to c us breaking up becoz of all this dissatisfaction or hatred between each of us.. if there's anything tt we disagree.. dun be afraid to voice it out.. n me.. im owaez here for all of uu if uu guyz haf any problems.. n ii tink uu guyz noe tt.. :) To my JACKASS bros n sis.. ii noe.. uu guyz care abt me.. uu guyz lurvee me.. n tt's d reason y.. uu guyz didnt wanna tell me anything if there's any problem coz.. uu dun wanna hurt me or make me worried.. ii appreciate it.. dun worrie.. ii understand ur actions, aitez?? but if it's out of d BLs.. no matter wat.. remember.. dun leave me out.. okie??
hmm.. january is coming to an end.. february is coming.. Lalat's bdae is juz arnd d corner.. on d 2nd of feb.. n ii still dunno wat to get for her.. not forgetting fyra's on d 9th, jannah's on d 11th n sam's on d 12th... my bdae is d closing for d feb babies in our cliques.. ii wonder wat surprise hafiz has in mind.. n syg.. im gonna expect a surprise from uu, ryte?? n im waiting.. i'll juz wait n c for tt dae to come.. but im not expecting anythng much arh...
okey larh.. i'll juz end my blogging here..
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [8:22:00 PM]
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
**LaTeSt uPdaTe**
weii... it's been weeks since ii last blog.. hmm.. well.. within these weeks.. many thngs haf happened..
ii gez.. d grup YEABAA.. it still exists.. but.. within d grup itself.. we haf our own cliques.. ahakz.. n gez wat?? im part of another grup arh.. JACKASS..n d members arh.. dya, fadily syg, yenn, bala, afiq, hafiz n muhsin.. yeah..
-=dya=- --> Pussy Cat GaL
-=fadily syg=- --> MagNeto
-=yenn=- --> BooBy GaL
-=bala=- --> Sex MaNiac
-=afiq=- --> Dick Slapper
-=hafiz=- --> Fizzi
-=muhsin=- --> ToyoL
haha.. namer.. satu satu merepek sey.. tapi stail.. wee~
bridging is somehow over.. okey larh.. ii get to work wit my super.. Brie Belo.. oh my god!! ii can melt manz werking wit him.. he's juz so kiuut.. ii juz lurvee it each tyme he kols me gorgeous bitch.. aargh!! cair aku!! wit tt kiuut smile.. adoii. RM.. my retail klaz.. ii lurve tt klaz, manz! dae r quite sporting somehow.. quite participative.. n becoz of tt.. d other retail klazes thot tt we, bridge leaders, favour RM.. [[since wen is there favouritism in bridge leaders??]] ii wun blame d new batch.. during d telematch.. 10 of d participants came from RM.. but none from RK or RL.. so yeah.. no surprise dae feel tt wae.. on tt dae.. there was a disagreement between d BL n SC.. to tink of it.. yeah.. engineering got 4th n we business got 3rd.. altho ii was happie tt business won over engineering.. ii wasnt quite happie wit d results.. all of us seriusly dun understand how ICT cud win overall.. both games.. engineering won.. n as for cheerleading.. business was wae louder than ICT larh.. farkklah d judges!! sheesh..
afta d telematch.. we went to eat @ cafe 1.. then.. we plaed a game called dare or dare.. we didnt want to plae truth coz it's boring.. n all was a sexual dare larh.. heh.. ii had to start d ball rolling larh.. n dae adcili asked me to kiss syg on d lips.. but later.. dae changed it on d cheeks.. geez~ ii dun mind kissing him on d lips.. :p then.. there was this part where fadily had to kiss mia.. ahakz.. n fadily was so malu malu.. haha.. kiuut sey.. he ended up.. using his shirt to cover mia's cheeks n kissed her.. haha.. in return.. mia too had to kiss fadily back on d cheek.. mia step malu malu.. but ii noe.. she lurveees it.. betul tk anakku?? muahaha.. well.. darius.. he had a combo arh.. haha.. he was sitting @ a corner wit pong n joanna looking thru d photos arh.. n he became a victim...
my booby gal had to squeeze her boobs in front of darling pillay.. n tis pussy cat gal had to squeeze his butt arh.. haha.. n darling pillay had to kiss him.. fuyoo!! wakaka.. pong oso got a kiss from me.. but d worst has yet to come.. after afiq was asked to pour a cup of ice into his boxers.. ii was asked to pour it into my bra arh.. ouch. adoii. it was damn fucking cold arh.. my boobs! mampos! it duzn end there. ive done d worst thing tt ive neva thot of doing it arh.. even wen ii was in TANJONG KATONG GIRLS' SCHOOL arh.. NEVER!! ii had to french kiss wit yenn arh.. n yes.. ii did it.. even tho it was my dare.. yen started it first n she ended up biting my lips. thanx arh sis. ahakz.. but tt wasnt as bad s d guyz kissing one another.. we ended it off wit darling pillay kissing azri syg.. haha.. n azri syg was lyk reluctant arh at first..
d next dae.. ii ended earlier than d others.. went to do my project wit azimah, su n diana.. went to plae pool while waiting for syg.. n we met him halfwae arh.. maryam, leila, zimah, su n diana was teasing me all d wae arh.. pe jer.. malulah saya.. heh.. supposed to wait for darling pillay.. he didnt come to sch arh.. met bala.. but he was waiting for afiq n d rest arh.. so.. me n syg went home first.. ii was damn tired arh.. n syg was damn shag arh on tt dae.. but we ended up lepaking @ sengkang.. hehe.. juz lurveees it wen ii spent tyme alone wit him.. ii heart him.. *muaXx*
n yes.. gez wat?? ii didnt expect dali.. to be maryam's ex larh.. farrk larh tt guy.. all along.. ii didnt noe tt d guy tt kips bugging me everynyte to tok to him n go out wit him was adcili my own klazmate's bf arh.. sorrie maryam.. ii reallie dunno abt tt.. yucks!! ii hate tis kind of guy sia.. ii dun lyk it sey if my bf were to plae timer behind my back!! so.. syg.. if eva uu become my bf.. uu better think twice before uu do it, aitez??
okeylarh.. ii gtg now.. c ya..
signing off,
-=dayah_kekek a.ka lembu=-
posted at [3:12:00 PM]
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wEe~ aHaKz..
well well.. ii juz came back from my holz.. went to putrajaya.. from d 30th December to 2nd January.. then to KL n for d laz two daez.. my family n ii.. we juz staed in Melacca.. hmm.. okeylah d holz.. wasnt tt great.. not tt bad either.. Putrajaya.. was a nice place arh.. @ last.. ii managed to c n enjoy d nice view.. it is a beautiful landscape.. hmm..
went KL.. n too many things happened larh ehk.. 1st nyte.. syg kolled me up.. but my batt was flat.. so.. didnt get to tok much to him.. but we managed to kip in touch tho.. using my aunt's hp.. heh.. kolled him up b4 ii went to sleep.. he was conferencing wit aren, afiq, fadily syg n hidayat.. but most of d tyme.. he was awae larh.. no wonder wen ii asked him to kol.. he didnt respond to my msg.. joined conference for a while arh.. dae were so noisy.. as usual.. YEABAA grup can neva be quiet.. hehe.. afta tt.. syg private wit me for a while.. n gez wat?? azhar buat hal agik!! aargh!! farkk larh. tk abes abes sey nie anak.. wen is he going to end sia?? whoeva is kind enuff.. pls larh ehk.. tok some sense into him.. ii dun mind befrending him.. but ii can no longer tolerate any nonsense from him..
hmm.. thruout d holz.. ii missed everyone back in s'pore.. haiz.. my YEABAA members.. n lalat's digi cam.. ii brought it along.. oni pix of animals tt ii snapped.. haha.. there was lembu, elephant n kuda.. haha.. mmg patut pun.. kiter org ader outing to the zoo during one of d bdaes.. haha.. oraitz arh.. mia n dayat's bdae.. hehe.. ii reached s'pore on d 2nd nyte.. @ arnd 12 plus nearly 1am.. called syg up.. n he was outside.. okeylarh.. so.. didnt tok much to him.. afta bathing n all.. called my adek, afiq arh.. thot tt dae were conferencing.. but uu noe wad?? afiq answered my kol.. but he didnt realise it arh.. he was adcili sleep-toking arh.. ngigau.. adek aku nie! haha.. let me blog d best part of d conversation..
dya: "bsk.. korang seme jmp pat mane?? nk tgk citer ape?" [[dae planned to catch a movie larh..]]afiq: "yg pegi.. aku, ko, yat, mia, nadiah n fyra.."
dya: "fyra?? fyra?? biar betul.. fyra ikut kiter?" [[ii was lyk repeating it arh..]]
afiq: "uh uh.. sape ntah pi ajak dier.."
dya: [[ ii was lyk.. wokey~]] "dlm kul brape tuu?? pat mane??"
afiq: "yg pegi.. LELAKI.. aku ngan MIA.." [[waddahell?? since wen did mia change her gender?? ohh yarh.. ii forgot.. she has a dildo mind you! beware of my daughter! ahakz.. :p]]
dya: "ermz.. afiq.. nie confem ko dah penat sngt tau nie.. dahlah.. ko g tdo sane.."
n afiq was lyk..
afiq: "ko dah nk letak?? aku blom agik bilang ko sape sape yg g bsk.."
haha.. afiq afiq.. adek aku nie! wakaka.. sleep toking.. abes.. imagine ehk.. afiq sleep toking.. hehe.. kekek.. hmm.. on d 3rd.. ii was supposed to haf IAC Lesson arh in sch form 1pm to 4pm.. but.. ii ended up.. going to Wee Care centre instead.. help em out.. thanx arh yen.. uu blurt it out.. ii was lyk telling her.. "ii miss my candy floss" n she saed.. "it's okey darling.. ur floss is here.." ii was lyk.. "shit!" she was lyk letting d cat out of d bag larh ehk.. coz in tt room.. oni got me, fir, mia, syahidah n yen.. whoelse can she refer it to besides fir?? ii dunno whether fir got d hint larh.. but he was smiling @ me afta tt arh.. we were joking arnd.. n ii was lyk.. "manz! tis is so hurting for me.."
wen all was done.. me, afiq, mia n hidayat.. we were supposed to catch a movie.. but we were damn tired.. so.. we've decided to chill n grab our bites @ d airport.. went to terminal 2.. haha... slack lyk hell.. mia was suggesting tt we all shud go GENTING as a grup during one of our holz.. n she dgn selambanya.. she saed.. "eyy.. go arh.. it's so cheap.. it's oni $90.. inclusive of transportation n accommodation.." ahakz.. n hidayat n afiq saed tis.. "set larh yat.. kite g GENTING.. kte duk jer tau pat dlm hotel.. sampai masernyer.. kte balek s'pore.." haha.. he added.. "kalau org tanyer.. sal ko duk ajer pat dlm hotel nie.. aku jwb.. sbb.. aku bwk duit $90.. utk hotel ngan tambang bas aje.. kalau aku kuar dari bilik nie.. aku tk boleh balek.." haha.. terkekek-kekek kiter org ketawe.. haha.. mia mia.. farnielah uu peepz.. bought chocolates from COCOA TREE.. shared wit afiq.. sent hidayat off to d mrt station n d step-siblings went home taking 27.. took an hour to reach Sengkang coz there was a traffic jam @ TPE.. hmm..
d next dae.. we had a BL miting.. haiz.. kecoh.. got our BL shirt.. okeylah.. bleh tahan teruk arh.. haha.. then.. during our lunch break.. dae start eir drama.. afiq n muhsin.. fyra angkat kaki.. wen nadiah came.. haiz.. ii dunnolah whether we are doing d ryte thing.. syg saed before.. anythng.. juz saed straight.. jgn simpan simpan or tok behind her back.. haiz~ so.. we've decided to confront her.. afta d miting.. while waiting for fyra n lalat.. we lepakz pat cafe 1 dulu.. bala n afiq took turns to angkat me.. haha..wen fyra came to join us.. ii was d one who did most of d toking.. afiq n muhsin.. didnt wanna tok.. waddahel lorz!! ii cud c tt fyra was controlling her tears arh.. wen all truth was out.. ii called her aside n sent her off to d bus stop.. we both ended up crying.. fyra cudn promise me tt she's not gonna commit suicide.. n if it's true tt she's suffering form leukamia.. ii feel sad.. we s frenz.. shud owaez be there for her.. but did my action hurt her?? ii dunno.. becoz of tt.. d security guard thot tt ii was a lesbian arh.. waddahell lorz!! went to join aren, lalat, afiq, bala, muhsin, hafiz, mia, nadiah n samaniah @ d forum.. dae stopped d game n consoled me.. dae told me it's not worth it to cry for such a gal.. but nobody understands.. if she reallie were to commit suicide.. it's me.. ii will be d one who has to leave with d guilty conscience thruout my lyf.. coz.. becoz of me.. ii did d toking.. becoz of tis.. it was too much for her to bear wit it tt she decided to end her lyf.. gosh! ii dunno.. ii juz feel sad.. haiz~ n before fadily syg left.. seme usik dier.. ckp.. fadily yg made me cry becoz he nak balek.. haha.. n sam.. yg tk bersalah.. pun kene.. bab he plaed d Hari Ini dan Semalam song.. haha.. tt's d song tt syg sang to me before he revealed his feelings for me.. *meltz* n becoz of tis.. ii contacted wit Azhar from Sports Management.. knew him during d NYAA Camp.. but he was oni a hi-bye fren until tis thng hepened.. haha.. toked to him.. n he knew abt my candy floss.. he asked me to go wit floss.. haiyo! ii dunnolah..
afta sch.. went to KFC.. shared d buddy meal wit bala.. sham came to join us coz ii asked him to come down n amek his baju BL.. afta sending mia, nadiah, salamaniah, hafiz n afiq off to d bus stop.. sham sent me off to my bus stop.. going off to whampoa.. but ii didnt go home straight.. lepakz wit sham under one of d void decks.. he asked me how are thngs between me n azri.. n ii saed.. ii dunnolah.. ii juz dun wanna put high hopes.. n he saed.. "trust me.. uu guyz will end up together one dae.." ntahlah..
ii eva saed tt.. once d YEABAA grup is made up.. no more in no more out.. well.. ii gez.. we hafta made d ammendments then.. fyra is out of d grup.. n muhsin took over her place.. now.. we want pong out of d grup n elizabeth n sam.. welcome to d grup.. okeylah.. ii wanna log off now.. c ya..
signing off
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [3:42:00 PM]
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