Tuesday, February 27, 2007
**a poEm deDicaTed t0 my beLoved azRi**
This poem is specially dedicated to whoeva the person is...
This moment I will always remember
This scene is so familiar
Holding your hand tight together
Both of us can't bear to let go
Each time I wanted to say something
It's better to kept it silent
Give me just one minute
To concentrate and admire your charms
Happiness comes with sadness
At the same time, it's struggling in my heart
The confusing tears can't gauge the sadness that I'm feeling
The love that I've given can't be taken back
The things that you owe me need not be returned
Please don't take my heart away with you
Everytime I'm apart from you, I'm deeply defeated by you
Everytime I give out your gentleness, I felt the pain in me
Everytime before we part, everytime before we kiss and bid each other goodbye
It will only be the time I taste a feeling of being loved.
posted at [10:54:00 PM]
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Monday, February 19, 2007
p-lay darLiNg~
Pillay darling... ii dunno watz wrong wit uu... ii msged uu... uu NEVA reply... ii MSN-ing wit uu.. still.. there was N0 RESP0NSE!!
ii dunno watz reallie happening to uu...
suddenly... uu msged me n tell me to take care of myself n tt uu lurvee me very much... ii was lyk... "watz happening?? im blur!" wen ii asked uu.. uu told me tt uu dun haf d desire to live... lyk waddahell larh?? ure juz making me more worried uu noe...
nvm larh darling... if tt's d wae uu gonna be lyk... it's fine wit me.. continue to make me more worried for uu... both uu n him... owaez make me worrying for uu guyz.. haf uu guyz eva considered my feelings?? ii CARE for d both of uu, okey?? but watz d pt if ii cant even do anything to help d both of uu in tymes lyk tis?? aargh!! ii juz hate tis sia!!
watever larh... juz continue to be lyk tt... im going kraziee soon!! :(
P.S: *ii wonder who duzn nid who now*
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [4:06:00 PM]
++dedicated to CM++
hmm... tis entry is dedicated mainly to HIM... he shud noe who im referring to larh ehk...
well... ii gez... sometymes... accidents do haf a blessing behind it, huh?? yerpz... ive been keeping tis to myself for quite some tyme now.. n ii tink... it's tyme tt uu noe how ii reallie feel...
honestly, ive oreadi prepared a letta for uu.. tinggal tunggu maser ajer... but ii dun dare... ii dun haf d courage to pass it to uu.. coz.. im not prepared for watz gonna happen afta tt...
however, ii sense d urgent need to tell uu tis... n god has answered to my prayers... ive accidentally msged uu abt how ii felt wen it was meant for my fwen... it's gd that ure observant enuff to realise that ii was referring to uu... n ii felt relieved somehow...
thus, im gonna repeat my words once again...
"ive thot thru it n ive oreadi made up my mind...ii still want tis relation that ii haf wit uu... coz ii still treasure it... so... no matter wat... wateva ure doing even tho it is too hurting for me... ii haf to take it by my side n accept it... ii pray hard tt at the end of d dae.. u'll realise how much ii love uu... n ii mean it..."
well... it's up to uu to decide... if uu tink tt ure gonna take advantage over wat ive juz recited... then.. go ahead... but ii believe tt ure not tt cruel...
yerpz.. ii gez that's all tt ii hafta sae...
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [3:53:00 PM]
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
"mY bDaE g|FTs"
blogging tis juz to share wit all of uu who read my blog...
let me list down d presents tt ive gotten tis year...
1. Heart-Shaped Chocolate
2. Handphone pouch
3. Small soft-toy [[Bear]]
4. Teddy Bear
5. Belt
6. Tudung
7. Lip Gloss
8. Tongs
9. Dildo
10. Handphone Cover [[Nokia 7250i]]
11. Sony Ericsson W810C [[mcm firnyer..:p]]
12. Winnie-d-Pooh Bear
13. Tobblerone Chocolate
14. G-String
15. Bikini
whoa~ it seems tt ive gotten d complete sets tis yr, huh?? A tong, a dildo, a g-string, a bikini and an edible lingerie... THANX ehk EVERYONE who had given me all tt!! wee~...
n firdaus... im not menyibuk-ing okey?? how wud ii noe tt ii wud get a hp which is similar to urs, huh?? wadda hell larh... ahakz... :p
n uu my candy... let me tell uu larh ehk... ii can ONI do tt for uu if uu end up being my one n oni HUBBY, aitez?? muahaha... ermz...*uu noe ii noe larh ehk...:p*
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [2:41:00 PM]
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
**mY wOes**
16th february is here n yes... dya_lembu is a yr older on tis very dae... being 21 tis year... a yr where most will sae... "ohh.. uve gotten d key to freedom.." well... to a certain extent ii agree...
coz... girls will owaez be girls in eir mother's eyes... we can neva escape from eir sight... but well... it's nuthng new to me...
hmm.. so.. how did ii go celebrating my bdae tis yr?? let me see...
firstly... ii wud lyk to thank my YEABAA members for celebrating my bdae as well wen we celebrated lalat's bdae on d 2nd of feb... not forgetting fyra's n sam's larh... n yes... afiq n hafiz!!! uu guyz lied to me larh... can come n tell me tt d chocs cost uu peepz nearly 50 bucks... ii was shocked larh... but ii was too gullible to believe uu bros ii gez... but hey?? uu cant blame me, okey?? coz... it's my BDAE present... thanx ehk... tho it ONI cost nearly $7 n not $50.... ii still appreciate it larh... coz... it's d thot tt counts... :)
next... hafiz bought me a new hp cover for my hp... well... not tt ii dun lyk it... but lyk ive saed... im gonna get for myself a new hp, ryte?? but.. wateva it is... thanx hafiz for it...
hmm... tis is d best part tt im gonna blogged abt in tis entry... my GALFWENZ from TANJONG KATONG GIRLS' SCHOOL... namely.. fahna, merah, khairah, lulu, juju, nadz n wany.... uu guyz did an awesome jobs... *thumbs up for d party tt uve organised*.. wee~
on d 10th of feb... we made our wae to lulu's condo in Pasir Panjang... fahna came wit ari[[tho he was late larh..]], juju came wit fir n liz came wit shakir... had lotsa fun... dae've planned a bdae party for me n liz... ii was touched n shocked larh in a wae... coz... ii knew abt d party but ii dun reallie noe watz gonna happen during d party... how ii wish my candy was there larh... but too bad.. he was not able to make it...
ii was adcili being tailed by two Bangladesh men...dae followed me all d wae from harbourfront to kent ridge terminal back to lulu's condo... juz to get my no. waddahell larh... it scares me lyk hell lorz!! msged fir SM n azri syg... n azri syg accompanied me on the fone larh... coz ii didnt noe wat to do... n to tink tt he can still joke arnd in tymes lyk tis arh..
Dya: "Why are these banglas following me sia??"
Azri: "That's becoz ure pretty.."
wah!! wen ii heard tt... ii was happie larh... tt ii adcili make him repeat it 3 tymes... muahaha... sorrie syg...ii juz cant help it since it's been a long tyme since ive heard such remarks from uu larh ehk... so... tt shud show... how long haf we not being kiping in touch lyk how we used to larh... ii missed those daez sia... reallie... seriusly... adoii.
@ lulu's house... we plaed d black magic game n d mrt game... haha.. kekek larh... wen all was bored... we plaed d 7 level pigs... kecoh sakz... d bez part was wen liz tried to distract ari n get him to tok to her... she called his hp up...n he picked it up... wakaka... terus ari kene promoted to 2nd level pig.. ahakz... n d biggest pig was fir ii tink... kecoh sey..
then... it's tyme to cut d birthdae cake... alahai... d cake was nice n well decorated larh... lurvee it sia... liz was shocked tt we're there to celebrate her bdae s well... she wasnt informed abt it larh.. duh! kate surprise mah?? ii got my presents from em... n im reallie reallie touched... n ari... thanx so much for paeing for d pizzas yarh?? wee~
tis yr... ive gotten my presents from fahna, juju, khairah, mairah, nadz, fir SM, nana, my mom, n many others larh... ii wud lyk to thank all of uu who had wished me be it thru hp, msg thru frensta, testimonials, kolling my hp juz to wish me n oso verbally... it's swit of uu peepz larh... ii oso wud lyk to take tis opportunity to thank udrena for tt small little card from uu larh... it's reallie meaningful for me... THANK YOU EVRERYONE!!!
btw... HAPPIE BIRTHDAE UDRENA bebeh!!!
now... ii wud like to mention abt FIRDAUS bin RASHID... how on earth did uu get to noe abt my bdae?? ii mean.. ii was trying my best as to not tell him larh... coz... ii didnt want him to get me anythng in return for wat ive given him for his bdae last yr... if he were to noe.. ii wud prefer it if he noes it afta my bdae has passed or in simple words... ii expect him to be d last person to noe larh... but ii was shocked wen he asked me wat im gonna do for my bdae... whoa~
wen ii asked him... uu noe wat he saed?? "ii did my research n interrogate some pple as to noe wen's ur bdae.." if tt's d truth.. im loss for words.. coz.. uu took d initiative juz to find out wen's my bdae larh... @ first ii thot it was thru frensta.. but... he saed it wasnt... yeah... uu neva noe if he's lying... but wateva it is... thanx fir... *syg awak*
hmm... pple... im sorrie for not blogging lately... im bz larh... lagi-lagi now.. im involved in CHINGAY.. together wit d SC students n zai n fir... haha... fir was somehow a laz minute member who was being pulled in larh... thanx to me.. muahaha... but it was fun larh to haf him arnd...
try asking zai n d other SC peepz.. dae juz cant stop laughing n smiling looking at me n fir argueing non-stop... ahakz... lyk s if we're d jokers for d dae... even on my bdae... in d logistic room... nana was juz looking @ us... we juz cudn stop argueing wit each other... ahakz... kecoh sey!!
hmm... enuff of d happie moments...
there's sure to be sad moments larh ehk... well... ii didnt wanna make a big fuss larh tt those two didnt celebrate my bdae wit me... coz... ii was told tt he has to be @ d temple on my bdae... n mia told me tt she wanted to plan a surprise for me initially... but her daddy saed tt he cudn promise coz he has to go out wit his sista or somethng lyk tt larh... so... ii was lyk.. okie larh~ ii understand tt dae r bz... so... ii dun reallie blame em.. but uu noe wat ii found out?? dae went out to plae bowling...okie.. probably d sista refers to udrena larh...
okae... tt's fine wit me... ii kinda suspect tt dae went out to celebrate udrena's bdae... ii dun blame her... ii wasnt angry wen ii learnt d truth... wat pissed me off is tt... tis darling of mine... was lyk... putting words into my mouth larh...
heyy!! do uu noe how much ii missed uu people?? but now tt uu saed tt ii dun nid uu animore juz becoz ii saed i'll c how larh wen uu asked me to go out wit uu todae... wah! do uu noe how hurt ii was... tears was rolling down larh... worst... uu asked me whether ii lurvee uu or not... n uu even asked me to prove it to uu... ii was lyk... "okie.. now.. he's oso doubting me larh.. n tt he duzn even trust me larh.." im reallie reallie hurt n disappointed.
okie.. mebe im having my M00D SWINGS now since im having my MENSUS... sorrie darlings... ii didnt mean to hurt uu in any wae... sorrie if my words were harsh yesterdae in my replies n all.. ii dunno larh.. i've oreadi felt d loss now... *god.. pls help me!!* ii reallie reallie lurvee d both of em so much... but ii dunno larh...
to my candy.. ii dunno watz happening to us now.. each dae.. ii can oni cherish d happie moments tt we had.. im missing uu badly... *sobz*
we nid to tok.. seriusly.
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.ka. lembu=-
posted at [12:29:00 AM]
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Thursday, February 8, 2007
||moJo gRad daE||
well.. todae is abg mojo's grad dae.. was happie to see him larh juz now... so.. im blogging to update d pic tt ive taken wit em.. oni a few tt ii haf.. coz.. d rest is in cindy's hp n joanne's camera..
ii lurve tis pic d most.. coz we all looked so perfect.. wit him in d middle.. ahhh!! ii reallie miss those daez with him... ii dunno y.. but now.. each dae.. ii juz feel awkward weneva im arnd him.. for eg..
Yesterdae [[070207]], ii went home late coz.. nobody's was home larh.. n so.. ii made my trip to his house area in Admiralty n made my wae back to Sengkang.. juz to kill tyme larh ehk.. how ii wish it was juz me n him alone.. but it duzn werk.. even afta udrena left.. during d jourmey.. ii was damn farkking tired larh.. but ii refused to lay my head on his shoulder tho he asked me to.. ii dunno.. ii juz feel awkward.. esp afta wat juz happened recently larh...
wen udrena alighted from d bus.. it was oni me n him left.. but howeva.. altho ii juz wish.. ii cud hug him once again n neva let go.. ii juz cant.. no matter how much ii long for it.. ii juz shake his hand n walked awae.. god!! y izit tt im reacting tis wae??
now.. im gonna repeat tis! I'VE NEVA PUT HIGH HOPES ON HIM N IT'S STILL REMAIN TT WAE.. but.. hey~ no one can stop me from lurving him, ryte?? n ii juz hope that those words from him in d wee hours on 261206 was true larh.. so uu.. ii hope uu try to understand me lyk wat im doing now.. im trying to understand uu, aitez??
now.. im moving on to d other matters tt nids clarification. lyk wat ive tagged.. im not gonna persue d matter animore.. lyk wat ive tagged on my tag board.. ii juz wanna thank those who had adcili write those heart-renching comments on my tag board.. tt's all ii can sae...
hafiz.. personally.. ii juz wanna sae im sorrie if ive hurt uu in any wae.. ii seriusly haf no idea watz going on.. but ii dun mean anythng arh.. okey??
kae larh.. ii shall stop here...
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [10:19:00 PM]
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~hEy hEy~
well... ii am blogging tis entry early in d morneng... while waiting for su, diana n zimah to arrive larh.. coz.. our projects stuffs are wit em..
ii sense d urgent need to blog tis entry coz.. ii nid to clarify tis issue once n for all before it gets out of hands larh ehk..
to all those pple out there.. whoeva read my blog... if uu tink tt one of d sections where ii blogged abt my past.. im not referring to those two in particular.. [[uu shud noe who larh ehk]] im sorrie if anybody terase yg it's meant for em.. but d truth is tt.. d person concerned.. didnt even noe tt im adcili toking abt him/her*.. so yeah.. pls larh.. before uu come to any conclusion.. can uu lyk juz come up to me n asked me straight??
wokie.. ii hope.. with tt.. sape sape yg perasan im blogging abt em.. get it ryte, OKEY??
*delete whicheva is applicable
signing out
-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-
posted at [8:19:00 AM]
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@ words of wisdom @
ii was reviving d testimonials for tis fren of mine.. where ii came across tis testimonial.. it sounds interesting to me.. so.. ive decided to blog it.. here it goes.. enjoy reading peepz.. (",)
If a girl were to cry in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.
A girl wont cry easily.
Except in front of the person who she loves the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she puts down her ego.
Guys,
if a girl were to cry bcoz of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys,
if a girl were to cry bcoz of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you'll ruin her life.
When she cries rite in front of you,
When she cries bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes.
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling??
Think.
Which other girl had cried wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you??
And bcoz of you??
She cries not bcoz she's weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Bcoz crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.
Guys,
Think about it.
If a girl cries her heart out 2 you,
And all bcoz of you,
Its time to look back on wat you have done.
Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "i'm sorry".
To my friends... Ponder this message seriously.
Dont do dis to a girl.
You may regret it for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life, she's the only one that love YOU the most!!
posted at [3:07:00 PM]
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